Friday, December 12, 2014
The Elusive Motivation
I would consider myself a pretty motivated person. I've always worked hard to do well in school, work, athletics, etc. Which is why it's so interesting to me that motivation can be something so hard to maintain. When it comes to fitness and health, my motivation seems to come and go in waves. Almost daily.
I admire those people who have, for years, been waking up, lacing up their shoes, and hitting the pavement or the gym. Like it's nothing. Like it's brushing their teeth or getting dressed.
Why does it come so easily to some but yet it's a constant struggle for (many) others?
The daily swing is what blows my mind the most. At 2pm I can be sitting at my desk feeling completely motivated. I'm ready to work out! I'm going over gym plans or running routes in my head. I'm cooking up a healthy meal in my mind and determined to skip anything sweet!
Then 5:00 hits. I drive home for 20 minutes. I walk in the door and the motivation is gone. Just disappeared. It might as well have been a unicorn riding a flying pig.
And then I realize I need to vacuum, and do laundry, and go through all those boxes sitting out in the living room. Oh and when was the last time the toilets were cleaned?
And instead of working out, or doing any chores around the house, or cooking a healthy meal, we drive through Chipotle (they need a drive thru) and plop our asses on the couch for the remainder of the evening watching Vanderpump Rules.
And in my mind is a promise of a better day tomorrow.
I'm not saying all days are like this. Obviously I'm not a complete hot mess. But I just don't get it. How can I go from riding the fitness train one minute to total couch potato the next? How does one hold on to the elusive quality that is motivation? How do you get to consistency?
I'm reading The Power of Habit (have been for a while - pick it up here and there). It's helping me understand how habits form and how you can develop the ones you want. But we all know it's not that simple. Even if I understand how to make fitness part of my habits, that doesn't mean I'll be able to do it successfully.
I don't know if I really have a point to this post. It's more of a stream of conscious. But I do know I will always continue with trial and error. Last year running worked for me for a while. This year I'm trying to hit the gym in the morning and it seems to be working. As my former boss would say, I'm just going to keep throwing spaghetti at the wall to see if it sticks.
Instead of eating the entire bowl of spaghetti.
On the couch..